Disgusting

 The way some people treat others disgusts me. Underhanded passive aggression and blatant disregard for an individual's well-being. An exciting outing of fun an adventure turned into some macabre soap opera about defending one's right to exist as they want. Really, human race? This is what we've come down to? The color of a person's skin is no longer an appropriate slander topic, now it's gender, appearance, fucking hair, and their own choice of people to associate themselves with. I would maybe understand if harm came to a person because of the company they kept or the choices they made, but the only harm comes from the offense the close-minded people cause. Emotional, mental, and collateral physical harm. Why? If you care for the person, why do such a thing? Even if you are a stranger, who are you to say who or what a person is? You know nothing. You respect nothing. How are you to gain respect if you give none?



How could someone go from being a friend to some horrendously atrociously insincere enemy? Over something as simple as dissociation from drama? They remove themselves from you because they are being the bigger person, and you are perpetuating how bad you've become by throwing your jaws around their throat while cooing sweet nothings. Why be a hypocrite? What drove you to such lengths? Why succumb to that when you were the one to start it in the first place? You are scolding them for reacting appropriately to the reactors you set up. Like screaming at a dog when it flinched because you beat it. Cruelty. That's what you have become, you are cruel. And you sit atop your throne with your peons and piss on the people who see the truth and say no.



Today was supposed to be a fun day, and for the most part it was. But humanity has fallen far. Kindness is no longer found in the hearts of men and women and those in between. Common courtesy is a rare gem that must be unearthed in order to shine in the sun; even then, it is thrown around and scratched and damaged beyond all recognition.


I love the people I allow into my life, that is why you are there. I'm sorry for the horrible things that happen to you. I apologize for all of the monstrosities that befall your person. You are with me for a reason, I keep you around for a good cause. There are those I use, but I do not keep them close to the heart. I refuse to allow them close because that is not where they belong; I will not be deceitful. I will not pull someone close, whisper niceties in their ears, and then refuse them the friendship they deserve. If you think you are being used, do not hesitate to ask me. I will answer. If you are friend, believe it. If you are a tool in my life, believe it. Do what you wish with the answer. I refuse to fake it to make you feel better. This is my life. You have your life. Everyone is entitled to be who and what they want. Consequences will find you if you intend harm. Be reasonable, people. Fuckin' a.







Goodness: Everyone was adorable today. People I wasn't even expecting to look good or for me to feel good about looked fantastic. There was generosity abound within our small circle. Fun to be had and joy to be shared. Some of us ice skated, we all talked, and plenty of pictures were taken (I'll add some in a few days). Early morning on a few hours of sleep, and I'm currently pushing my insomnia to its limit, but I don't want the day to end. I want to relish in this good company and shoo the bad things away. But the nastiness has infected our group. Folks are exhausted, physically and emotionally. Important ties have been severed, possibly permanently, and lives are changing. Why do the winds of change have to hurt so much?




I'm Little Red Riding Wolf. Because why the fuck not. Pictures can be viewed here.